I was penciled in at Columbia Presbyterian Hospital to get the ETS (Endoscopic Thoracic Sympathectomy) surgery in December 2011.
I was all for it at first- too frustrated with living with myself. Every day, struggling with the smallest of tasks.
All of my friends and family seemed pro-ETS. They just wanted me to be happy and live a better life.
At the last minute, I cancelled my appointment.
The reason being the potential side effects.
I began reading horror stories of compensatory sweating. Stories where people began sweating all over their bodies, much worse than their hands had ever been.
Some stories were about people who didn’t leave their houses anymore, couldn’t wear their usual clothes, or refused to hug their loved ones. Many stories were about people who became depressed.
My boyfriend, Francis, started to worry about this surgery. He wanted me to be happy, but he didn’t want me to change. He thought the potential side effects were way worse than what I was currently dealing with. We both didn’t want to risk the compensatory sweating.
My hope is that the surgery continues to improve with a lower risk of compensatory sweating. If this happens, I will most likely get the surgery.
Until then, I am living the best I can.