I am a classical flutist living with Hyperhidrosis. I want to make the world a better place for people like me living with this condition. One step at a time, I want to create awareness that Hyperhidrosis is NOT Just a Little Sweat.
Here’s my story:
My parents were the first to realize something was different with me when I was only one year old. They would help me stand and they noticed me leaving sweaty footprints. In Elementary School, I didn’t understand why no one wanted to hold my hand and they called me gross. Middle school didn’t get any better as I often had armpit sweat stains reaching all the way to the bottom hem of my shirt. As I got older, I learned to adapt and purposefully avoided certain social situations. This made me angry because I felt I shouldn’t have to live less of a life because of Hyperhidrosis.
Although the odds seemed they were against me, I became a classical flutist, earning bachelor and master degrees in flute performance. Today, I perform often with a successful chamber group in NYC.
Becoming a flutist with hyperhidrosis was very difficult. Certain Dri anti-perspirant cured my underarm sweating, but my palmar and plantar hyperhidrosis are still very prevalent. As a flutist, I still struggle with sweating and swelling and fear I will never be able to reach my full potential. My hands have swelled to the point where I couldn’t feel my flute anymore. Instead, it felt like I was wearing thick rubber gloves and I could barely move my fingers.
Many times that I play on stage, the audience will be able to see the sweat on my fingers, running down my wrists and dripping to the floor. If that wasn’t enough, it’s also one of the worst feelings to be standing center stage with red blotches all over my neck and chest caused by Hyperhidrosis’ blushing symptom.
Until recently, I have been hiding my condition. Today, I am an advocate for spreading Hyperhidrosis awareness and acceptance. I write this blog about my experiences with the condition and hope to reach out to others to let them know they are not alone. I feel like I tell someone new about my condition every day. It’s scary, but I have courage knowing that I’m helping people just like me.